Monday (I think), February 28, 2011

Tonight I randomly remembered this blog.  I had forgotten it for such a long time.  I was never really a regular poster and didn't think I had any readers but apparently I was wrong.  I had quite a few comments from online Mommy friend's that I had never seen before.  I was touched.

I moved all of my old posts over to my other private blog because I still want to keep them, but I really wanted to make a fresh start tonight.

Stats:

Me: Rachel, 26
Husband: Isaac, 32
Married: 3 years, 5 1/2 months

Baby #1: Austin, 22 months
Baby #2: Owen, 5 weeks

I always feel conflicted when someone asks me how many children I have.  Those who know me know that I have lost 2 babies.  We lost our first baby, Hunter, in April 2008 when I was 15 weeks pregnant.  We then had Austin in April 2009.  We lost our third baby, Ethen, in March 2010.  Then we had Owen in January 2011.

I don't want to make people uncomfortable by mentioning my angel babies, but I'm sad when I feel like I'm hiding them.

BUT

I'm determined that this is not going to be a "miscarriage blog".  I will continue to mention them, but I hope not to focus on them.

Owen is now 5 weeks old.  I can't believe it!  Being Mommy to two kids has just started to get manageable.  I remember when Austin was young that it was right around the 6 week mark that I realized "Hey, I can DO this!" so I'm hoping that moment comes soon.

Owen is already smiling.  He started with a few random ones when he was just 3 weeks old.  Now I can pretty much get him to smile when I want, provided he's in a good mood.

Austin has been such a great big brother.  I totally expected to have had more jealous moments already but he's doing so great.  Not to say that he's perfect, he definitely knows how to push my buttons.  I just have to keep reminding myself that he's not even 2 yet.

Two weeks ago we had a mini photoshoot.  I hope I'll be able to remember how to share a few pictures.

Austin

 Owen



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